Staying Connected

So here I was all last night, tossing and turning and waking up again and again.  Each time, I laid there listening to the whooshing of the CPAP machine and wondered why I couldn’t seem to catch my breath.  I just kept struggling to get a good lung-full of air.  Oh, I considered just taking off the CPAP mask and going downstairs and sleeping in a chair so as not to disturb my slumbering husband.  After all, I’m the girl that out-snored a whole regiment of highland reenactors.  I really didn’t want to inflict that on him last night since he had to get up this morning and go in to work.

Finally, around 4 a.m. I thought, “I’m just going to open my mouth and take a good gasp of air, even if it DOES make a horrible racket. ”  You see, in case you’re not familiar with the workings of a CPAP machine, once you are hooked up to one, the mask creates a seal and you might think that you are just breathing as normal but if you open your mouth, the air all rushes out your mouth and you sound like Darth Vader if you try to say anything.  So I opened my mouth and took a gulp.  Hmmm, I didn’t hear that rush of air.  I took another gulp.  Nothing but plain breathing.  I tentatively tried talking softly.  By golly, I was talking normally.  This was really strange.

I rolled over and looked at my CPAP machine.  It was on and working as it should but the one end of the long hose that SHOULD have been connected to the machine was laying on the floor.  The other end was connected to my mask.  No wonder I was having trouble breathing.  Since the machine was literally blowing air into thin air, I was actually trying to breathe through a mask and 6 feet of hose connected to nothing.  That will certainly teach me to stay up late reading.  Obviously I was not too awake when I put on my mask, turned on the machine, and turned off the light because I forgot to connect the hose to the machine.

The moral of this whole tale is…….if you find yourself struggling, ask yourself….”Am I connected to the source of the air I breathe?”  You don’t even have to use a CPAP machine to benefit from that question.


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